So tired...

So I have been pretty fortunate.
No morning sickness, however I am very tired.
I can now fall asleep sitting up.
And I snore. I never snore.
I do now. :)

I have a terrible cold and unfortunately am limited to what I can take.
So a cold that should only last a few days is hanging on.
I am currently sucking on a cepacol lozenge with cotton balls dipped in hot mineral oil in my ears. Classy I know.

Chris encouraged me to go with him to run errands and bought me lunch.
It is the first real meal I have eaten in days and it was so yummy.
Ribs.
My cravings are pretty humorous.
Meat, red meat, and lots of it.
I no longer crave sweets which is odd since I am a known sugar addict.

I still don't really feel like I am having a baby.
I am tired and am craving foods but otherwise same old me.
My bigger concern is rather than gain weight I have lost it.
I am chocking that up to being sick.
Chris and I know refer to my belly as a baby and we are pretty excited.

comfort = family

so my brother is here visiting.
it has been a very chill visit but so nice.
my whole family likes to just hang out talk and eat.
he bought me a baby gift.
my baby has baby vans!!! they are the checkered loafers ala spocolli from Fast Times.

the baby is being pretty cooperative.
my morning sickness is not consistent so that is nice.
also my cravings are pretty realistic
where things suck:
heartburn
and i hate to type this - gas
it is very embarrassing but welcome to motherhood right?

KFC Chicken Bowls equal ?

So... apparently I was whining about things for nothing. This is an odd thing to blog...
Probably very inappropriate but people blog about crazy things as it is...

If all goes well I will be a Mommy in June.
Crazy isn't it?

My tummy is a baby not chub. I was wondering why I wasn't putting on lbs on the scale but my pants were getting tighter.
Now I know.
Also the crazy need for fast food.
I like my occassional hot salty french fries but then I am good.
Not now... I have had McDonald's more than I would care to type.
And today the most embarrassing thing.... a KFC chicken bowl.
It was so good.
Luckily I have not had too many issues with the dreaded morning sickness but it's still early.

I am nervous. I am considered a mature birth mother so that comes with some risks. I have been cutting down on my caffeine and avoiding the foods pregant women are suppossed to.
I have been meaning to start doing more cardio but this week has been crazy...

My wonderful lead teacher had her baby!!! Very early but both baby and Mom are doing great.
The baby is so cute!!!!!
I am just glad they are both doing well. What that means for me.
Lead teacher duty.
Thursday was a struggle, today it got easier.
I think as the weeks go by it will.
It has too or my kids will pay the price.
Which is not cool.

Next on my to do list.
Tellling my other job.
No more working til midnight.
I am a little nervous about that talk.
Also I hate to put them in a spot.
But hey I am going to be a MOMMY!

In Bizarre Limbo Land

So I am hanging in this weird limbo land right now.
We are trying to have a baby. I have taken a test. One test said yes, several tests said no.
However here I am late.
Not a lot but late none the less.
So here I wait. Am I aren't I?
I would really love one of my Mike's Margaritas chilling out in my fridge but if I am and I do well that is not cool.
Ooh but that bite and cold and a little salt. Yum
My body has been weird but people I am taking that with a grain of salt as my body is always weird.
I find myself looking at my tummy asking it are you chub or a baby? I wish my tummy would let me know pretty soon. This waiting thing for something you really want blows.
Chris has been a trooper, he talks me down from my ledge each day. Gleefully telling me that he guesses that means we have to keep trying.

My job as schedule deputy starts Saturday ending Sunday. Leaving me chained to my phones in case someone calls in.
At least that means I will have plenty of time to start cleaning our basement.

I am in charge?! huh?!...

So in a week one of my bosses at the radio station is getting married.
Needless to say a lot of regular staffers will be in attendance.
Shockingly they put me in charge of the schedule! Which means if someone calls in sick I either A. Find a replacement B. Do the shift myself
Here is the thing there are other staffers who will be around who have been around longer than I. Why are they not in charge? When I asked this question I was told because I am known to be responsible.
That is good right?
Bonus I only have a remote all weekend. Leaving me available should someone call in sick.
Let us hope my radio station does not become Caprise radio.

In other news I have finally started purging for our basement remodel.
Why do I keep some of this crap?!
People I have over 35 pair of shoes!!!!
That is wrong, especially when I work at a pre-school.
Of course I bought a new pair on Thursday.
Black boots on sale. Hot.
Of course I promptly got them stuck on my foot last night.
Making me break into a giggle fit and clomp out to the living room and ask my husband for help.
He did not think it as funny since his "crack" show Battlestar Galactica was on.
Seriously I am smirking right now when I type this.
I have never had it happen and it was funny.

I have been eating sweets lately like a crazy woman. Suprisingly I have maintained my weight loss of 5 lbs. I am now keeping gym clothes at the Y. I really want to do water aerobics but am working up the courage to actually go.
Me swimsuit = scary.
I love it though, you get a serious workout and don't realize it because you are in water.
Won't be the same without Beth. I swallowed a lot pool water giggling but we had fun.

Finally have started embracing my inner artist.
I made a ton of jewelry for the girls at the Y and it was a big hit.
I am knitting and cross stitching too.
I love making stuff for people. They look shocked - why did you do this? I was bored.
Keep being bored right?

Lastly big hugs to Paul and Ann.
I really appreciate your words of encouragement.
I am so happy and lucky to have you as friends.
Time really shows you who your friends are.
Either they shake off or stay by your side.
I am glad you have stayed by my side guys.
Just wish I lived closer.

Catching up

So the last couple weeks have been well ... Different.
I found out on Monday my Grandpa is getting married. Here is the thing - he told my Dad in a letter. My Grandmother has not been gone for a year yet.
It all seems so fast.
I know, I know at their age things going a little faster but still.
I am trying to take it all in you know?

In my little world we are trying to have a baby.
Easier said than done.
Why is it there are people in the world who can sneeze and they become pregnant and we can't?
It is hard, especially when I work with kids all day.

Finally my brother is coming to see me with his girlfriend.
I am really excited to see a member of my family.
I miss them
A lot.