Where to Begin?!

Let's start with the cool - Gabby is now almost 17 months. She is a riot and I count myself lucky to be her Mommy. She is very sweet and smart and I feel like we are truly partners in crime.

The weather is being pretty cooperative, we are on a verge of an amazing election. What are we going to do when this thing ends tonight?! And without a lot of crazy dieting on my part I have managed to loose 7lbs!

Now for the not so cool. My Mom is still in a cast, our neighbors trimmed our tree, and my husband and I are having some issues. What makes me a little sad is I kind of am at peace with things. What will happen will happen and we did our best. I love my husband but I feel like we have graduated from married couple to roommates. What's worse is I feel like he is kind of ok with that...

MOVING ON...

Finally there is the bizarre - o. A random email from an ex who I haven't hear from in 5 years!!!!

FIVE YEARS PEOPLE.

Is there a full moon no one told me about?!

What you gonna do right? As my friends on Yo Gabba Gabba would say - Keep smiling...

Off to KC I Go...

My Mom shattered her ankle last week. As a result I am heading off to KC with Gabby to take care of Mom. If nothing else to keep her some company as she is confined to a wheelchair for a minimum of 6 wks.
Feeling some guilt as it is only the first month of school but in reality it is 10 days I won't teach. (Six classes for my 4's and four classes for my 3's) Still I am stressing. I have been frantically getting things done before I go. I hope to have it all done tomorrow so I can focus on laundry and packing.
Keep your fingers crossed!

Jumbly

I need to take a deep breath and could use a big glass of wine. BIG. I am experiencing a lot of inner turmoil. I need to vent but I am hesitant to air too much of my dirty laundry. You know?
I have been feeling a lot of pressure not at work but at home. I feel like I am talking and behaving in circles. How often can you say the same thing and not have it change, and at what point do you say enough? Then I think what I am complaining about? I have so much, I have a beautiful amazing child yet I still feel this space that needs to be filled. I just need to figure out with what. At this particular moment - a huge peanut butter chunk cookie would certainly help...

The Internet brings out the Idiots

It has been a long couple of weeks. On one hand great. My parents took Gabby giving us some much needed couple time. Then they came and visited which was lots of fun. I love seeing my daughter entertain her Grandparents and them try to entertain her. She stamps her feet and spins in a circle ala Happy Feet when she dances - which is all the time. She even puts her little arms above her head while she twirls.
On top of it she has figured out how to do head stands.
On the flipside a good friend of mine lost a loved one. Due to the circumstances the press got involved which in turn made a personal loss a public thing. Let's just say it's easy to say things when no one can see you. However I would love for any of those people to say those things to my face.

Ache

So my little one is at her Ada and Nana's in KC and I am trying really hard not to feel guilt. I miss her so badly I can hardly eat or think. I know she is in the 2nd best place in the world and this is as good as for her as it is for us, but God this is hard. I am struggling just looking at her toys.
She was such a good traveler. We drove to KC in two days and stayed overnight and she was just awesome. She was probably less crabby than her Mommy and Daddy. And for the record - Iowa is boring. Oh my it goes on and on. The people are very nice and parts are pretty but you hit the middle and ugh. I have never lived in the country so after awhile I had seen enough.
On the flip side the Iowa/WI border - beautiful. WOW.
So here I am trying to eat some time 'til Thursday when she arrives with her Grandparents. Then she and I partake in the Harley Davidson festivities with her Grandpa.
Now I just have to make it til then.....

She can find her toes...

Gabby is now 14 months.
I already think she is pretty cool but now her coolness has gone up a level because:

• she can show you her toes when asked
• can find the color red in a book
• just about feed herself
• can walk
• sings
• reads books - among her favorites: Go Dog Go
• thinks she is making Max sit and the cats when she has food in her hand
• gives hugs and kisses
• dances to Weezer and RunDMC with Mommy
• is simply amazing...

She is beyond remarkable. It is fun to see her do things for the first time. Like walk barefoot or eat a new food. I am starting to understand how people end up with more than one child. Then they become teenagers. Yikes!

Comfort Zones, Contractors, and a week solo...

This week are house is invaded. By contractors. In theory it should all be finished by next week but until then craziness will be in full effect. We are having our house resided and new carpet and wood put in. So if there isn't someone outside there will be someone inside. Which if it was just me - no biggie. However I have a baby, two cats, and a dog. I am going to have to do some creative activities to occupy all. Wish me luck. When it is all done I think our house will look great it is just getting there.
Today I am talking a class. It's a beading class. I can already make some jewelry but it would be nice to learn how to use the tools I have bought. I am a little nervous because it is a bunch of strangers making beaded stuff but I think it will be fun.
Finally in about two weeks I am allowing my little sweetheart some time with her grandparents. I am beyond nervous. I think she will do fabu, me - my heart will be breaking a little. Even on our worst days I am nutso for her. It will be hard but I think good. And good practice because in Feb. - Jamaica for our 5 year anniversary baby!