Adventures in driving

So I had to visit some clients today and take them presents for Admins day.
We thought balloons and a plant so nice.
Except in a million an hour wind!!!
Then they got tangled - ugh.
But our admins loved them and that is what counts.

For me I got to learn a lot about Madison's nooks and crannies.
As a trip to Waunakee and back was really for me a trip through the scenic northport and lakeshore area.
Last week I got to drive in downtown Milwaukee.
Can I just say my fear of driving - dwindling.
Which makes me happy!

Office Bad Ass

That is me.
So I guess because I have yet to form any relationships with anyone I have been designated the person who scolds people for being out ill.
To the point a few people will avoid calling me.
I find it humorous since I was known as a softy at Springs.
However today since I was ill I was very lacking the sympathy.
I am a person who goes to work sick. Unless I am heaving or just terribly sick I go.
If I had one more person who didn't sound sick call me who did sound very sick and say they weren't coming in I think I would have screamed.
It probably didn't help I didn't eat my lunch until 3. Or that I was hopped up on cold medicine.
Yes I really do love my job!

Sick again...

I think I have a problem.
I have a cold again.
It is in my throat and ears and I just feel miserable.
I came home from work yesterday and just passed out. Well I got in bed and clicked through crap tv.
And now I am wide awake.
When really I just want to sleep.

Ghosts...

So Chris and I had date tonight and it was great.
Then we saw him. My deepest darkest secret still in Madison.
And with a daughter in tow.
My mind has been going ever since and has not slowed down.
I have so much I want to type but have tucked it so successfully in a little corner I am afraid to do it. I am still a little wobbly.
All I keep thinking is it is so flippin ironic.
And painful.
I need to stop right now.

Best Week Ever in a long time...

So Monday started out a little rocky.
Let us just say the week perked up considerably.
Since I now work on the East side and my best buds live on the East side we have been spending a lot of time together.
And it is Fabu.
Monday night we hit Fyfe's for martinis and yummies.
Thursday night the Retreat to give Sandy support for her surgery.
The cherry on the proverbial sundae? Last night. Beth and I went to a new place on the square and had a lovely meal, granted after driving in circles trying to figure out where to go. Not a typical thing but Madison is currently invaded by High School Forensic kids and people checking out the Midwest Horse show. Ended up downtown and had super yummy meal at a new place.
Then ended w/Fyfe's, martinis, chocolate cake and live music.
I love Madison.
This morning I went to my new favorite salon and they turned me into a rockstar.
I have never had hip rockstar hair before I do now. Looks kind of weird.
Good but weird on me. :)
And I got to drive by the lake and see the capital.
Again I love Madison.
If you can survive the winter it rules :)
My spirits are definitely improving just need to pull it together a little more.
I am so lucky to have such great friends.
Thank you.

Ever notice how one thing can make you feel so small?

I try really, really, really hard not to turn my blog into a downer for anyone reading it.
It is a place for my friends to know what is going on in my life without having to phone, if their lives are too busy.
Lately my blog has become my place for solace and calm. It is where the real me hides out.
When other parts of my life aren't so calm and I feel like I can't be myself.

A big chunk of me is very much going south, and I don't know how to fix it. And to be honest maybe I am the problem. It just doesn't seem to matter how much I try it keeps disengrating.
I am beyond humiliated that I am failing at this. I am trying so hard to be what I thought and I think I should be, but really the truth is that isn't me.
I am a forgetful person, when I am having fun I have a tendency to push other things off. I am a neat freak...
These are things most people love me for, but the one person who is supposed to love me for these things unconditionally - is making me feel like being like that is no good.

So here I am doing what I don't want to .
Airing a little dirty laundry. Trying to hold it together when I just want to crumple.

Feeling overwhelmed and very sunburned...

So I did the cancer walk today. What a beautiful day to do it. Walked with some of my old coworkers and found out one of my former coworkers has cancer.
It is stage 3 which is never good, but he is good spirited about it and has shaved his head in response to the chemo. One of my walking partners is a cancer survivor and is still getting chemo - she outpaced us most of the race. :)

I ran to the finish line and it felt so good. And sad. In the last two years I have lost an aunt and friend to cancer. I have 3 friends who are in the midst of battling it. I have had two grandmothers, 4 aunts, and a cousin all have some form of cancer. Just makes me sad.
What makes me happy is all the people who were walking and running. My group alone raised a ton of cash. We have decided to run together every year til we don't have too.
So that is my new goal. I am going to run not walk for my friends w/cancer.

Let us just hope my tin ankle can make it. :)

Wish I were a homeowner...

So Chris and I get home today and find a letter in our door.
We are being asked to clean up the dog poop in our yard. Also they complained about the torn up grass.
Here is the thing...
Max does not poop in our yard per their request we have been taking him out back and also cleaning up after him. See little plastic bags w/poop in backyard.
Also as far as the grass goes... we have not had grass since we moved in.
It blows...
We look like the ghetto yard.
Yet ironically it is ok for our upstairs neighbor to puke on our stuff and play his music so load our pictures fall of the walls.
I hate it here.

Safe crushes...

So I have been a my new job for not quite 2 weeks. Can I just say - coolest coworkers?
They are.
One of my coworkers in particular - instant click.
You know it when it happens they are the people you want to hang w/outside of work and when they call into work you chat mindlessly for much longer than you should.
Welcome to my world.

It is awesome. I am also crushing a little.
Harmlessly, as well hello I am married and two my crush is not playing on my team if you know what I am saying. :) We have loads of fun when we open together and he has taken my advice and done is hair per my suggestion.
Very flattering to get this kind of attention without worries.
Chris knows and thinks it is hilarious that we talk to each other like we do.

And know I have someone else to ask - does this look ok?
Cause we all know I am all about multiple opinions!

Spring is here and the napping is good...

Can I just say how much I love Spring in Wisconsin?
You can smell it in the air. It is awesome.

Friday night I hung out w/my two closest girlfriends and celebrated another person switching jobs. It was a little bit of a debacle because of some miscommunication but it all worked out in the end. Then Chris and I went to our favorite burger place and ate Plaza burgers, drank beer and watched the game. It was lovely.

Saturday I vegged. Awesome loved it. Then got a very happy phonecall my friend Beth is engaged it's a lovely story but it's her story so all I will say is HOORAY!!!
Then Beth and I went and saw Finding Neverland. Great movie kids need to see it if you haven't yet.

And today more napping. Then I walked Max, cleaned our porch off, ate lunch w/my friend Sam. Passed out again. Just got back from dinner and a walk with Chris and ready for bed.

Reminds me of when I was a kid. Something about the fresh air and the sunshine makes sleeping feel so perfect and right.
Here is hoping the warm months get rid of my insomnia.