Look at her go :)

My little one is on the move sort of. She has started figuring out her arms and legs and it is amazing! She can hold onto things and look at something and reach for it. She went to daycare for the first time on Tuesday and was such a good baby! Granted the daycare is where I work but she did great. I am so lucky to have such a sweet baby. Her laugh and smile makes my day and I can't wait to hear her voice.

When the Baby is away...

Mommy should play but here I am thinking about her and not able to sleep. Both my parents are in town having some Grandparents time with Gabby. Do you think I would stay up or sleep in or have a couple too many cocktails? Nope.
I had one drink with our fabu dinner out. Talked about Double G all night, passed out at 10:30 and was up at 4.
I am so some one's Mom.
When my parents drove away with her I just started bawling my eyes out. Poor Chris - and we still have two more nights of this!

My Daughter

I have been up with Gabrielle since 5:30 this morning. We did our normal thing - she eats falls asleep on my shoulder, I channel surf put her in her crib she wakes up 2 hours later and we play until she passes out. She loves having stories read to her while you bounce her in her bouncy chair. As she was sleeping I looked at her and thought "this is my daughter, my daughter." Kind of dorky I know but amazing too. I have been tangled up in a mess a web of stress regarding her care and really wish we had decided I should stay home. Now we are frantically looking for affordable and safe childcare. Which around here is unfortunately scarce...
I hope it will all work out but still worry it won't. I know, I know shouldn't worry about things that you can't control.
It's just this is different for me, it's my baby. I am going to worry.

It's Been a Long Time

So Thursday I am having coffee with an old friend from high school. I have not seen this person for seriously almost 10 yrs.! I am a little nervous. Not even sure why, kind of silly really. She has been beyond helpful with baby advice as she is a Mom herself. And she reached out to me. Not sure why the nerves. I think it all hark ens back to my self confidence issues. For some stupid reason I tie a lot of my worth into what others will think of me. You would think at 35 I could let that go. I guess old, bad habits die hard. Normally I go through my day not caring and being pretty content.
So why can't I do that now? Especially when right now is probably the happiest I have ever been aside from the whole not sleeping much. I really miss sleeping in my bed. :) I look forward to Gabrielle sleeping in her crib and not her bouncer or car seat! But hey at least she is sleeping.

Hey I am not wearing Pajamas!

So I go back to work in 10 days. That being said Chris and I have been trying out different things to get everyone ready for the day. Today he got up just 15 minutes earlier and I was able to wash my face, brush my teeth, put in my contacts and actually put something on other than pajamas. Pretty exciting, since unless Miss Gabby falls asleep I have been living in my PJs. I am actually drinking a cup of coffee and have eaten some breakfast! Mind you I only got 4 hours of sleep because my daughter does not like sleeping alone. She prefers sleeping on Mom's shoulder. But it was four solid hours and there is something to be said for clean clothes and coffee. I feel like a new person.
Next week I am going to get up early with her and get her ready just like she was going to daycare. Instead we are going to run errands but I think it will be good practice for both of us. We had doctors appointments yesterday and she was a good baby. She even slept while we stopped for lunch! It was a little odd to eat lunch at the same time as my husband and have it be something other than a handful of Oreos and a diet Pepsi. :)
I still have a lot to learn about this Mommy thing and I don't think I will ever have it completely down. However it's feeling a lot more comfortable. Besides I truly do have the cutest baby ever! Ok maybe not ever but she is freakin' awesome!
I also have come to the realization that working part time in radio is not something that gels with being a Mom. It is really hard to walk away - AGAIN! This time though I feel like it was truly on my terms and for the best reason of all. My little Double G.

Flying solo

Chris went back to work today so it is just me and Gabby. With a little help from Max who stays by Gabby's side always. She is currently asleep in her bouncy chair so I have been able to eat and tidy up the living room. I don't want to stay too far out of fear of giving my cat the opportunity to harass her.

I spent a whole day away from her on Saturday so I have been not letting her out of my sight since I have been home. I road tripped with a friend to see Beth. It was great to see Beth but I really wish that I had been able to visit her earlier in her stay in Chicago. There was so much to see and Beth and I are both very into seeing the city. The museums, landmarks etc. and we don't mind walking. Unfortunately it didn't work out that way. We got to see the Sears tower. Which is very cool. Then because of various factors we ended up at the mall. Which was fun because we were all together but we missed out on the Art Institute. :(
Also, I highly recommend eating outside at the Cheesecake factory on Michigan Ave. Really yummy eclectic food and the way the outdoor seating is set up you can people watch and stay dry even when it is raining. The crab cake sand which is yummy and Beth had lemon raspberry cheesecake - so good!
Met Beth's amazing aunt who she stayed with. Beyond gracious and had a remarkable apartment on the lake. The kind you see in movies. I miss Beth and seeing her this summer make me realize how much and all the reasons why. I really wish we lived closer to each other but she has such a rich life in NOLA. And I have a new chapter in my life starting here.

I am a Mommy

it is crazy to think i a some one's mom

she is sleeping on me as i type this one handed

i am still trying to figure things out not let other people's opinions get me down

as long as she is happy that is what matters

but boy it's hard, because everyone really does have something to say!

add to that Chris's impending return to work and i am more than a little nervous

but hey, i have figured out things pretty well so far

and you can't beat a princess sassypant's smile at 4 am