I have been up with Gabrielle since 5:30 this morning. We did our normal thing - she eats falls asleep on my shoulder, I channel surf put her in her crib she wakes up 2 hours later and we play until she passes out. She loves having stories read to her while you bounce her in her bouncy chair. As she was sleeping I looked at her and thought "this is my daughter, my daughter." Kind of dorky I know but amazing too. I have been tangled up in a mess a web of stress regarding her care and really wish we had decided I should stay home. Now we are frantically looking for affordable and safe childcare. Which around here is unfortunately scarce...
I hope it will all work out but still worry it won't. I know, I know shouldn't worry about things that you can't control.
It's just this is different for me, it's my baby. I am going to worry.
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