For Once it was not just a cold...

So every year about this time I get several colds that hang on. Blame it on a job where I deal w/a ton of people and oh yes I don't take care of myself.
Well... this year my cold lasted for 2 weeks, I didn't get better and I started becoming short of breath. At the urging of my coworker this morning I went to the Urgent Care center next store.
There I found out I have a severe sinus infection and the beginnings of Whooping Cough. If I had let it go I would have go any further I would have full blown Whooping Cough. Nice.
I know am the owner of an inhaler and am on antibiotics for a week. Antibiotics which by the way have horrible side effects. I won't go there but let's just say can't take them until I am home.
YUCK.
The one good thing, I had a in your face moment w/my boss. Last week she treated me like I was faking it. Well I wasn't, I knew I wasn't but it was nice to have a doctor's backing.
And a pass for the day off.

I am probably going to a Special Kind of Hell

Why you may ask?
Well... I needed to change my address and get my plates renewed. So I thought I will take a lunch and go to the DMV. Two hours later...
Mind you I did not ask and oh yes this was my first full day of selling.
I will probably be fired on Monday.
It is not my fault the camera broke. Or that I let the nice lady talk me into a new drivers license.
God did punish me a little, my picture is horrible and I can never show it to my coworkers. They will figure it out.
I am going to burn.

Word to the Wise re: the word Yes

Don't say it unless you are behind it 100%
I did and I wasn't and no I am paying the price
Don't cry for me Argentina, as I have done enough for all of us

I Have a Curtain Addiction

I have a problem.
I am addicted to Window Treatments!!!
I bought new curtains for our bedroom, now for our living room and kitchen door.
My husband thinks it is cute.
Thank goodness.

I had a great talk w/my boss today over lunch.
It is amazing the people who reach out to you and notice when you think they aren't looking.

So now I take a deep breath and keep plugging along.

Sappy songs that make you cry...

Ever listen to a song and it compels you to relive a ton of emotions or overwhelms you to the point you start thinking about things you put in a box far away in your head?
I just had one of those moments, I would rather not go into what song as you might think I am a dork. Well you probably already do... :)
I am sitting on our bed putting together a collage and suddenly the song starts and I am flooded by all this emotion.
It is crazy. Right?
I really think lately I am loosing it. My stress level is at about 10. So much in my life is going right yet there is such a big chunk of me that is just so dark and blue. I really only let that side of me show to my husband. I think he is probably only the only person in my life who can handle it. Most everyone else in my life expects me to be the goof, the smiling girl, the one who is strong. Got news for everyone I am really not that strong especially lately. I told Chris tonight I wish I could just sleep for about a week. I know I am a lot more fortunate than most people, so I probably should shut up right? But I just feel so overwhelmed lately.
I feel like I have become this packaged, bland version of my former self. I know, I know, when we grow up we change. I get it, but I feel like I am so far removed from where I wanted to be when I got done with school you know?
But again, who isn't? You take what you can get, I feel like I haven't taken what I can get, I have taken what I thought would make my family happy.
Therein lies the problem. For so long I have done what I thought would make them happy, I have lost a little bit of me in the process. I like my pooch, am a people pleaser.
And it is killing me slowly.
Thus breaking down during cheesy songs. I am a dork.
I am really hoping the DJ thing will help me. For the longest time my life has been work period.
Now every week I have 3-4 hours where I can play silly 80's music and do something I love.
I think it is the kick in the pants I need. The other thing I am doing is trying to take better care of myself. I am not saying extreme makeover but maybe a little slimdown.
I pay for a club membership, I should use it.
You know?
So here it is from here on out... more things for me and mine. Less for those who don't matter.
Right, right?
Oh and no more sappy songs for awhile. :)

Curtains - who knew?

What a great weekend already and it is only Saturday. Our friends Paul and Nicole were in town and they were gracious enough to invite us to a wine tasting. Then we had a great steak dinner. I love just chilling like that.
Today Chris and I had a visit to the vet w/Max and then Petsmart. They had puppies rescued from hurricane Katrina, broke my heart. Got a call from Beth and we tried a new restaurant in Sun Prairie. It is called Puerto Marquez. You need to eat there. I loved it, so good!
Then I bought new curtains, crazy I know, I live on the edge. Our house is great but was owned by a boy who hunted, so I have been slowly trying to make it ours. Enter new curtains, it is amazing what a fancy window treatment can do to your living space.
It is lovely.
So much so I might go get a new pair for the living room!

Finally - I got hired.
I will be the newest voice of the Magic 98 weekends.
Suprisingly not overnights.
Fingers crossed.
I am excited!

Overnights? Again...

So I met w/potentially my new boss today.
We listened to my air check. I hate listening to myself - he was very complimentary. I was much harder on myself. I officially filled out an application and should know more by week's end. He asked my availability and it sounds like I may be on overnights again. I didn't expect a big daypart by any means but I am getting old!
As long as it isn't every weekend I think I can do it.
He still wants me to come up w/a name, I told him I have to use my first name. It would be too odd not to. So now I have been focusing on classic rock bands and their names to come up with a last name.
So far the favorites are:
Tyler
Richards

In other news my Mom is gone.
We had a tense visit, it is just really hard. My brother is there and I feel alienated a lot. I know it is not intentional but it happens.
Trying to deal with that the best I can.

I think I did ok...

I think it went well on Magic 98. (That is the station I may or may not be working at)
My possible future boss is meeting w/me on Wednesday for an air check.
I will know then my shifts and all that good stuff.
I will keep you all posted and thanks for all the well wishes...

I did it...

I had my first live ever radio audition.
Thankfully I was trained by one of my closest friends.
The format is different, the breaks are different, it was pretty scary.
Toward the end I started having fun but the first hour was rough.

I used my name but do need to come up with a last name.
Ugh...
I hope it works out as everyone seems nice and the time flies!
The pay is good and the opportunities are there.
Fingers crossed....

Should I change my name?

So today was the day and all went well.
I have never had someone give me such positive feedback,it felt great!
In case you were wondering I had an interview today - if all goes well this weekend I will be working part time at a radio station in Madison.
The format is Adult A/C not my alternative but I think I can do it.
I had such a pleasant interview, sad as it was I had an air check tape that was almost 10 years old. However, it must of conveyed my potential because I will be doing a live interview on Sunday.
I am a little nervous as Sundays are pretty popular at this station. Sundays at the 80's. HOORAH MY FAVORITE TIME!

Now the question: whose got a radio name for me?
Unfortunately my name is too unique for this format.
I was toying w/Kelli Richards as a ode to the Gin Blossoms...
Or maybe Iris (Goo Goo Dolls)
hmmm....
Fingers crossed!

Friday nights in the big city and visits from old friends...

Went out Friday night in my new hometown. I was a little hesitant due to fear of running in to those I didn't want to see. Once out I had a blast. Got to see some of my friends from college who I rarely see. My friend Tim who hosted a radio show after mine. He is such a nice guy. My gut from laughing and my tummy was upset from too much vodka.
Must learn to pace myself!
My biggest problem is that I don't realize I have had too much until I get home and by then well it is too late.
I think I will have to just instill a limit and stick to it to avoid such mishaps.
Still fun though.

Got a phonecall and my Mom is coming on Wed. My uncle (her older brother) passed away unexpectedly Friday. I don't know him very well except for holidays but I feel bad for my cousin. He is kind of all she has as her Mom is an absentee to say the least. She is married though and has a family so that has to help her right now.

It will be nice to see Mom but the reason is no good.
Tomorrow is the big day.
More to come.
Thanks for the well wishes.

Getting closer....

Have a suprise interview on Tuesday.
Will keep it at that but can not wait.
I have been away from this for awhile but if I can make this happen might be a few more smiles on my mug.
Less free time but more smiles...
As it gets closer I will unravel the mystery for you further.

Lazy Saturday..

So I went into to work today against my husband's wishes by doing so I was able to meet up with Beth. We hit the mall, shopped, talked, and read magazines.
I love just hanging with Beth it so nice to have a friend you can spend a bizzilion hours with and it doesn't feel that way.
She is under a lot of pressure right now and I wish there was more I can do.
She is a much braver girl than I am.
Now that hurricane Katrina isn't the top story people have begun loosing their compassion, including her university. They put a ton of ridiculous deadlines on her.
They head home tomorrow to survey the damage.
Everyone send out those positive thoughts, girl needs a break.