Still sick and no doctor visit...

So I am still sick.
Didn't see the outside of our apt. until this morning when I made a run for Woodman's to get myself some supplies.
Called the nurse on call and even though I have had this cold for 9 days it's not enough for me to go to the doctor.
Not yet...
If I seem to be getting worse come Wednesday then I can go.
The thing that is killing me is I am so wiped out.
I also in my illness managed to drop 5 lbs. in a day.
I know that can't be good and when I told the nurse she said drink lots of liquids.
OK...
All I know is I am missing a lot of work and that is no good...
My cough is so bad Max won't come near me.
Just got to power through... need to be at work.
On that note back to the futon of boredom.

I think I have Whooping Cough

Not really but maybe...
I do have a cold from hell. Which blows because tomorrow is my husband's birthday and I am so not ready.
No groceries for the homemade dinner he wants, no gift.
Just a card and me hacking away.
I suck...
He is out w/his friends right now and if he knew I was up from the couch would pound me but I can only sit still for so long!!! I go crazy I tell you.

Still trying to figure out Wednesday.
Annie - I was told by the recruiters of the company I interviewed with that I would be interviewed by their VP and some other muckey mucks. Instead I was interviewed by an account coordinator which is the position the recruiters contacted me about.
BIZARRE!!!
Everyone keeps telling me how great my resume is but no one is making any offers.
Maybe it's too good.
NOT...

Still got school to hear from.
Really all I want is a job that helps to have a good life. I don't mean we have to be wealthy but at least be able to start having a family and maybe buy a house.
Right now we could do it but we would be scrapping.
So sad - two degrees and barely making it.
I stick my tongue out at George W and the republicans right now.
And then I smile because even though I am not a fan of the group mentioned above it has been pretty cool to see people vote for the first time who have been denied that right before.

I suppose back to the futon of boredom.

Most Bizarre Experience... not Ever but bizarre...

So I had my interview today.
Let's just say weird.
I was told I would be meeting w/all these bigwigs and have to take a personality test.
None of that happened.
It was maybe a 1/2 hour with a guy that does what I would in theory be doing.
He seemed impressed with what I had to say but geez... just not what I thought.
This was the first interview but in taking to the recruiters they made it sound like I was going to be grilled.
All I could think on my drive home :
I took the day off and spent $70 on a new outfit for that?!

Don't get me wrong the job itself sounds awesome but wow so not the interview I expected.

Cold season has taken over our house...

So earlier this week my husband who never gets sick - came down w/a doozy of a cold.
So bad he actually called into work.
Last night I started feeling like I had a sore throat.
Today I have spent most of my day either in bed or on our futon watching the food network.
I am at least showered but even the great feeling of a steamy shower is slowly loosing it's healing powers.
With the snow all my cravings can't even be met.
I really would love a malt right now, but I am going to settle for a tall glass of ice tea.

In other news I have a huge job interview on Wednesday.
Don't want to jinx it so I am going to leave it at that.
Keep you fingers crossed.

Why Babies rule ...

So I have begun my month long babysitting stint for my friends Dani and Joe.
This involves me hauling tail over to their place every Wednesday by 5:30. Dani feeds me which is cool, but I feel kind of odd about. Then leaves me w/Izzy 'til 8 or so when Joe gets home from class.
Tonight I learned just sitting on the floor can be hours of entertainment for little people who can't put words together.
Izzy sat in front of me I held her hands and we rocked side to side and tried to sing our ABC's.
Then I tried to teach her Rubber Ducky.
After dealing w/crap all day it is so fun to hang with her.
I got 10 hugs just because. She would stop what she was doing run over and hug me saying :AW.
So cute.
Other cool thing you can get her to parrot you. She makes this hilarious Grover sound.
Had her make it about 20 times purely for my entertainment. She was entertained because she was making me laugh.
And everyone was happy.
And that is why babies rule...

Blizzards and Blowing

One of my favorite comedians has a line : It's not that the wind is blowing it's what the wind is blowing.
Ain't that the truth Ruth!
I got to meet up w/my favorite former coworker Wendy.
Went to the Nitty Gritty in Middleton much fun - lamented to each other about HR.
She is a an HR woman too.
Then we looked outside.
Then we went outside.
Wendy had to walk me to my car so I wouldn't be blown over.
Lost a mitten - then I started home.
Let's just say the roads aren't bad. You just can't see. Anything.
Of course I drove home like a Grandma.
1o under and knuckle driving.
I almost gave myself a stroke my heart was beating so fast.
Is it Spring yet?

Torn...

So you all know I have the serious hippie granola thing going.
Help the world.
I have applied for school - waiting to hear on that front.
Now a position has come open with a non profit that works w/people w/disabilities.
It's still an HR job but no corporate crap and people who need help.
What's a girl to do?

Little or no support from the units...

So I let my parents know I am going to try to go back to school in the fall to be a pre-school teacher.
I was informed that I would really be a glorified babysitter and that it would put too much strain on my marriage.
And a miserable corporate job isn't?
Sometimes it's not always about money right?

Rain and floods in January?!

I love snow!

Not driving in it but playing in it.
Today was my day off and Chris and I went sledding.
So fun.
My legs hurt from the haul up the hill but it was so great going down.
Of course we ended the trip w/me making a snow angel.
Hoorah for fun snow!

Dr. Phil and the Con Artist known as My Mom

Oh my Mom she is the Con Artist.
Getting me to do Dr. Phil's weight loss challenge w/her.
Can't say no to her - she's my Mom.
My issue I am taking weight advice from a man I frankly don't find to be too terribly fit.
Funny man, smart man, entertaining man, but fit?
Uh no.
If it doesn't work see reasons above.
Here is my deal with all this stuff though.
It's expensive.
People are chubby 'cause fattening food is cheap yo.
Now that my Dad is home both parents have started putting weight back on.
Thank god because they were way too skinny but they are both feeling yucky about and since both my Mom and I are shorties and ride low to the ground we tend to start looking like weblos once the weight comes on.
So Dr. Phil and Mom - this better work.
Yo...

Next Big Step

So I have done it.
I applied for school today.
Have requested my transcripts and now am keeping my fingers firmly crossed everything else will fall into place.
I have decided that even though it will mean a huge paycut to follow my gut and try to be a pre-school teacher.
Those guys are the age I most adore and from research the age that needs bilingual people.
So away we go.
If I get in I have some major talking to do to my current employer because I will not be able to work full time in this program. Here's hoping they would work with me as they have done w/others.
This weekend when I looked through the want ads I always landed on the jobs working w/kids.
So that is where I am going to put my eggs.
If it doesn't pan out and I don't get in then I will go for plan B.
Which is finding a job that pays me a butt load of money.
Cause if I can't love my job than I gots to love the money. :)

2005 - WHOA!

Remember when you were little and the 90's seemed like such a futuristic time?
Can I just say how freaky it is that it is 2005?
One of my friends (I didn't know this til recently) ties sayings to each year.
This year it's Comin' Alive in 2005.
What a great anthem.
It seems everyone around feels like they are just trudging through. We all worry so much about making the wrong decision and not doing what is expected of us that we don't do what makes us happy.
My biggest thing is I worry about money. All the jobs I would enjoy pay considerably less than what I currently make. My wonderful husband said he would be willing to struggle if it meant me happy when I am home. Is a house really that important if I am not even happy when I am in it?
I don't think so.
So I am going to Come Alive in 2005. I am going to find my happy place.
I had my review and they decided to redo my job description so I am more admin support.
Which would be fine if I wanted to be an admin. But I don't. I got into HR to use my Spanish and help people. Not create reports and schedule meetings. That is fine if that is your life goal - more power to you. I am not that person.
I have always maintained that granola girl attitude inherited from my family. Even my military grandpa has exited retirement and works to help low income, minority kids find jobs.
My aunts are all nurses or teachers.
How can I not carry on the torch?
Everytime I look through the want ads the jobs that catch my eye involve kids or teaching.
So if in the coming years you invite me out and I say no - know that it's because I am saving for my sanity so I can do some good.