So because we are trying to buy a house my Mom has taken to emailing me.
Which is fine but my family has a tendency to even email things that really I would rather hear on the phone.
For example the fact that my Grandmother fell and broke her wrist and in the process had another stroke.
In the last 5 years my Grandma has had two strokes, been put on dialysis, and has had the left side of her body suffer slight paralysis. She is still a trooper and sends these great sassy email jokes and reminds me that I need to come visit.
Haven't seen her in almost 2 years.
This is where the guilt comes in.
She and my Grandpa love my husband and we have been trying to schedule time to go visit but with our work schedules and money situations we just haven't been able to do it.
Now I find out this morning my Grandma is not doing well at all.
All the should haves are running through my head.
My grandma was the lady who told me about all the things I couldn't ask my parents.
She inspired my love of shoes and costume jewelry and really anything with a sparkle.
She taught me you can still be tough and be a lady. Being little isn't a bad thing.
It is ok to dye your hair.
There is such a thing as unconditional love.
It is great to live by the beat of your own drummer and she will be the one person (besides my Grandpa) who will support me in it.
She is so much to me and I feel like I have failed her by not spending more time with her and letting her know.
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Caprise: My advice is to do whatever it takes to go see her. Grandmas are very special. She knows that you love her, believe me. You will feel fantastic. But don't let guilt weigh you down. Just go see her and be with her. The reasons that you love her will be stamped "validated." Send her a letter telling her all of the things that you have written here.
Ann -
I actually cut and paste my blog and sent it to my Grandpa to share with my Grandma.
Thanks for the suggestion, I really appreciate it.
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