LS Grandma...

So I have been blogging on and off about my Grandma. She has several serious health issues recently and Thursday it all came to a head.
She and my family have decided she just can't take much more of the way things are anymore and are taking her off of dialysis. They actually did on Thursday. I knew things were bad but chose to look the other way. However now I have to face it head on and I am a little afraid.
The average person only lives about 8 days after they stop dialysis, they stopped on Thursday. Bear in mind my Grandma has no functioning kidneys to speak off as a result of her other health problems. Due to her age and her condition she is certainly not a canidate for a transplant and frankly at this point she has made it clear she is done w/surgeries.
She has gone from a vibrant, funny woman who emailed me jokes and weather/family updates everyday to someone who rarely has moments when she is lucid. She is confined to a wheelchair and is loosing control of basic functions. Anyone who knows her knows that is not her.
So she has decided she is ready to go.
I am still trying to wrap my head around it all and have had long talks w/both my parents and my Grandfather. My Dad just got back from seeing her and he said he made peace with this happening then and feels bad that wasn't the impression given to me.
It probably was I just chose not to see it. I am a very emotional person, everything rides so close to the surface and I think I thought if I fessed up to it I would not be able to function.
So here I am blogging like a mad woman.
My Grandmother would like something I wrote about her, read during her memorial, and I said to my Grandfather if possible I would be honored to read it. My other concerns are we have so much going on here I feel bad leaving. However I would feel worse if I didn't.
She made me who I am - how can you not pay respect to that.