Here we are

We buried my father in law yesterday. The last 2 wks. have been awful. Let's just say some true emotions finally came out and it got a little ugly.
Essentially I had it out w/Chris's sister. Through this whole thing she has made it about her and what she has to gain, I can barely type that - gain out of all of this. It has been a little about loss but some comments have been made and some things were done that nearly ripped Chris's heart out.

However they are all they have now, I sat them both down on Thursday night and stressed how important it is they realize that. They both have a terrible habit of taking the other for granted then placing blame elsewhere. I am on my third funeral in 8 months. You can't take anyone or anything for granted.

You just can't. My heart has been ripped out several times recently and for my husband I bite my lip and keep going on. But I have to say if my children ever behave the way I saw some people behaving the last few days I will make them wish they were still in the womb. All of this is about loss and memories. Not stuff.
I am seriously thinking I need to get in touch w/my hippie roots and set up a tent somewhere in a field for away from the craziness. Except I like being clean, stuff, and please forgive me reality TV. :)

I guess my point is in this rant - cherish it, hold it, love it, don't forget it, be nice to people and yourself. All of that will take you alot further in life. Just look at my father in law. He may have left us but he did all of that and he was very loved.