I am in charge?! huh?!...

So in a week one of my bosses at the radio station is getting married.
Needless to say a lot of regular staffers will be in attendance.
Shockingly they put me in charge of the schedule! Which means if someone calls in sick I either A. Find a replacement B. Do the shift myself
Here is the thing there are other staffers who will be around who have been around longer than I. Why are they not in charge? When I asked this question I was told because I am known to be responsible.
That is good right?
Bonus I only have a remote all weekend. Leaving me available should someone call in sick.
Let us hope my radio station does not become Caprise radio.

In other news I have finally started purging for our basement remodel.
Why do I keep some of this crap?!
People I have over 35 pair of shoes!!!!
That is wrong, especially when I work at a pre-school.
Of course I bought a new pair on Thursday.
Black boots on sale. Hot.
Of course I promptly got them stuck on my foot last night.
Making me break into a giggle fit and clomp out to the living room and ask my husband for help.
He did not think it as funny since his "crack" show Battlestar Galactica was on.
Seriously I am smirking right now when I type this.
I have never had it happen and it was funny.

I have been eating sweets lately like a crazy woman. Suprisingly I have maintained my weight loss of 5 lbs. I am now keeping gym clothes at the Y. I really want to do water aerobics but am working up the courage to actually go.
Me swimsuit = scary.
I love it though, you get a serious workout and don't realize it because you are in water.
Won't be the same without Beth. I swallowed a lot pool water giggling but we had fun.

Finally have started embracing my inner artist.
I made a ton of jewelry for the girls at the Y and it was a big hit.
I am knitting and cross stitching too.
I love making stuff for people. They look shocked - why did you do this? I was bored.
Keep being bored right?

Lastly big hugs to Paul and Ann.
I really appreciate your words of encouragement.
I am so happy and lucky to have you as friends.
Time really shows you who your friends are.
Either they shake off or stay by your side.
I am glad you have stayed by my side guys.
Just wish I lived closer.

Catching up

So the last couple weeks have been well ... Different.
I found out on Monday my Grandpa is getting married. Here is the thing - he told my Dad in a letter. My Grandmother has not been gone for a year yet.
It all seems so fast.
I know, I know at their age things going a little faster but still.
I am trying to take it all in you know?

In my little world we are trying to have a baby.
Easier said than done.
Why is it there are people in the world who can sneeze and they become pregnant and we can't?
It is hard, especially when I work with kids all day.

Finally my brother is coming to see me with his girlfriend.
I am really excited to see a member of my family.
I miss them
A lot.

Teacher's First Field Trip

So I had my first field trip today.
It went pretty well. There was a few mishaps but nothing that couldn't be fixed.
It was nice to get out with the kids for a little while. We are also pretty lucky in that we have some great kids.
And very helpful Mom's and Dad's.
It wasn't exactly educational but they all had a very good time.

In two weeks it's time for a trip with our 3's.
That will be interesting.

I am still feeling a little blue and trying to snap out of it and be productive but my first response is to sit on the futon and feel sorry for myself.
Which frankly is ridiculous.
I am trying to be more proactive.
Starting with water aerobics on Saturday mornings.
Woo hoo.
Me in a swimsuit.
Scary!

I just need to get moving and embrace what I am doing more.
I am happy just can't seem to get past this big blob of feeling like I look horrible.
Which shouldn't matter right? But for some reason I can't let it go.
Which worries me... I am I not going to age gracefully as a result and become one of those older ladies who doesn't realize she is 60 not 40?
Or worse let myself go completely....
ugh

I need a frou frou drink please....

I need a yummy cocktail people.
Ever have a week where you feel like a cigarette you aren't even a smoker? I hardly drink anymore but a stiff cocktail sounds delicious.
Is that normal?
Ooooh or a big old margarita with lots of salt.
Yum

Haven't had a hard week nor a bad week.
Just missing friends and family would love a day of cocktail drinking and a deep snuggle in my bed.
That's all.
Just have no time.

Or even better a cocktail on a beach near the ocean.
Oh to dream...

5 lbs, homesick, 1 cup of coffee...

So I weighed myself today. I have been slowly changing my eating habits not so much exercising but staying away from excessive soda and sweets.
I am down 5 lbs. Not bad for 2 weeks. What I am more proud of. I am down to one to two sodas a day. (Cans even!) And I am not needing a nap during the day.
It is amazing what you can get done when you are not sleeping!

Suprisingly I do not miss the sugar. I have found if I treat myself with faux sweets, nuts, or fruit I feel better. Also having to get a cavity filled in a week is a good driver for skipping sugar.

I am pretty lonely though for my family. It is harder on me than I fess up to sometimes. I wish I could just drive to hang with them like I used to. I miss Sunday dinners with them and talking about books and music with my Dad. I miss just laughing with my Mom. I miss my brother. In the last ten years I have only had a two year stretch where they have been within realistic driving distance. Now with Chris's Dad gone and loosing my Grandma family is becoming increasingly more dear.

I am a little blue today but what is nice - I am no longer dependent on a pill to boost my spirits. I have been handling my emotions solo for almost 3 months now and is very empowering. I think really enjoying my job and having time for my husband helps tremendously.

I also discovered a yummy coffee! However I like it a little too much! It is so good I can drink it black however I normally don't do that so I forget one cup will do me. Little jittery right now. Going to go clean the bathroom and burn off that excess energy.

It is the last weekend of summer and it so nice out. Wish I didn't have to work tonight but I know once I get there it will be fun. It's just the getting there I am not a fan of.
If you ever want to hear me and you are not within range we are now streaming.
It's pretty cool.

Now to attack our scary bathroom tile...

1 Mile in 20 minutes...

Today I finally put my chubby body on the treadmill and did my first work out.
I have slowly starting adjusting my eating but not my habits.

I am really glad we have our own treadmill because I really enjoy plugging in my Ipod and dancing while I walk. I also sing along. It is not pretty but it makes that 20 minutes fly. My goal by the end of next week is a full 1/2 hour.

Since the baby thing is not happening I decided that I would try and loose some weight.
I have been wanting to for awhile but just have not been as serious as I should be.
Next week I check out the Y gym with one of my coworkers and start my H20 aerobics class if it is still open.

Also got CPR certified last night.
Pretty exciting.
I am now a certified rescue person.
Let's hope I never have to use it.

Ay Chihuahua...

So I have been offered another teaching job. So if I take this I would be working in the morning, afternoon, then weekends at the radio station.

I never thought in my life I would be offered the opportunity to do two things I enjoy at the same time. That being said I need to choose.
Do I keep working at the radio station and give up a chance to work with kids who speak Spanish? Do I give a chance to work with kids who speak Spanish for a part time radio gig? I know poor me. Not at all right?
Right.

Just weird to be here and trying to put it all together.
Hopefully I will put it all together correctly.
And not burn out.
And keep my house clean.
And not annoy my husband.
And do a good job.
You know, things like that.

Ok I need to make a poster for school.